I've Lost My Fear Of Falling

warning : extensive rambling, extremely bad camera pics, ranting about pit etiquitte and support bands, slight fangirling over matt cortez, extremely, extremly long.

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As soon as the doors opened Kate and I had already lost Emma and Bre. We sat down 4 rows from centre barrier which was pretty cool. And we waited.

 

Anyway, everyone was sitting down, and all of the sudden everyone was standing up trying to get to barrier, meanwhile Kate is on the ground. People are literally stepping on her and pushing her down, whiles shes crying and screaming. I was there yelling at people to get her up now but no one would; they just kept going for barrier. It was scary and sad. It's like the unwritten rule of MCR a show (and all shows) is that if someone falls down you pick them up. Then to make it worse, these fuckfaces next to us started.

                                      

Assholes: She shouldn't be here, take her out, she should get out.

(Kate didn't want to, I'd asked her a million times if she needed to go to first aid or something and these people obviously wanted our spot)

Elle: No, it's cool. She's fine. She'll be okay

Assholes: she doesn't look okay. She shouldn't be here *rolls eyes* how did this even happen?

Elle:  No, listen. She's fine; she's been to plenty of shows. She went to the fucking pits at TOC and owned it. She's fine.

 

Then they started talking about how blue haired girls get killed in the mosh at Slipknot.

And then I got mad aha. Seriously, I told Kate they were assholes and fuckheads and they heard me and blah blah.  It was enraging. Haha I actually got openly mad and I don't get mad that often.

Poor Kate L The crowd was really disappointing where we were at.

 

And you can't touch my brother

And you won't fuck my friends

 

Kate was pretty scared and was having a bit of a panic attack (I would've been too) so we moved back a bit.  Then moved some; more because these older guys were being inappropriate and shit. No music, yet the mosh was already tough. Haha so I wrapped myself around Kate and made like…a human barrier and pushed away people hahaha.

 

I'll never let them hurt you, I promise.

 

The Getaway Plan were the first support band. Keelz burnt me some of their stuff and it was cool, so it was good to see them live. I really liked them. Matthew, the singer, was fantastic…moved a lot. He was pretty awesome. There songs were all good. Their set was pretty quick, but they seemed to be pretty well-received by the crowd, with good reason.

 

 

Then Circa Survive came on! Ahhh they are one of my favourite bands.

If they weren't playing with MCR I would go to a C.S concert the night before I like them that much.

I know they're not everyone's cup of tea, but I swear they're like my fucking café.

I love them a lot.They played wonderfully I thought. There was a white screen projecting images and lyrics which was really cool.Haha Anthony Green was so funny.

The crowd sucked ass. They boo-ed Circa Survive. Wtf.

In my opinion, you should NEVER boo support bands. They are there, trying to get you psyched up for the main act, trying to get you exposed to their music, trying to give you a good time. They are going out there for YOU, even if they're not your thing, show some respect and not boo. Applaud to show you appreciate them coming.

He started rambling and was like "Yeah, last night I had a weird dream. I dreamt I hated my drummer! But it was just a dream…BUT I HATED HIM…..but it was just a dream".

 

 Hahaha he's so weird. His dancing skills were funny too. He stuck his tongue out a lot too. They played 'Living Together' which is probably one of my favourite songs off the new album (I love Juturna very much).

 

Then he was like, "yo, I want you to make laser gun noises. You know like 'pew pew pew" and he put his hand into a gun and starting shooting these invisible lasers. Then he got us to do it hahaha.Then he got us to click our fingers (not many people could do it due to sweaty hands) and he was like 'oh it sounds like rain' and the whole centre made these noises. It was so fun.

 

The crowd favourite was definitely 'Act Appalled'. It was the last song they played and it seemed like people actually might have known it. Kate and were singing like crazy mofos and she did her backing up vocals like she always does xD

 

Anyway, I loved them. I'm really happy to say I've seen them now.

 

Their set list was:

Living Together

In The Morning And Amazing

Golden Baby

Mandala

Oh Hello

On Letting Go Greatest Lie

Fear in Faith

The Difference Between Medicine And Poison Is In The Dose

Semi Constructive Criticism

Stop The Car

Act Appalled

 

...or something like that.

 

Then, Circa left. The roadies came out to setup.

Yay! Cortez came out and did Franks' guitar. I did not fangirl >.> Oh I admire that man for picking up franks mic, tuning, being fill-in-Mikey and being generally fucking awesome. I have quite and intense liking for Matt. I was like 'Kate! Look its Cortez! *insert ramble about how much I love Cortez*'. And the girl next to me was like 'who IS that?' and I gave her like...this full wikipedia-esque view on him and what he does xD She seemed genuinely intrigued so it was good.

 

Killing before killing was cool. You're so cool, so cool, SO COOL.

 

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MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. There was no curtain, they just came out. They had the wolf backdrop which was cool.

I was madly searching for Frank, (which is hard to do because according to Marylin Manson he's a midget and all) and then I saw his scorpion tattoo and turned into a crying mess hahaha. Even though he was at Brisbane, I was still paranoid about him not being there.

 

I remember seeing the Fro, and was like laughing for some reason. I don't know why, even while I'm writing this now I'm smiling like an idiot. Toro makes me laugh. Everything about him is so cool and amusing and fantastic. And then I saw Mikey and was like *squeal* And Gerard came out looking lovely.

cred: [v]

 

It was seriously like a dream. And I remember looking at Kate and seeing her face, and she was so fucking happy. And it was so cool that I got to take her to her first My Chem concert. It was all nice.

 

Anyway, they opened the show with 'This Is How I Disappear' which was different yet totally kick ass of course. When he was finished he said 'Hi Sydney, you all look fucking gorgeous'.

They played (in around this order)

This Is How I Disappear
Dead!
I'm Not Okay
Give 'Em Hell, Kid
The Sharpest Lives
Mama
Cemetery Drive
WTTBP
I Don't Love You
House of Wolves
Prison
Toro's solo.
Teenagers
Helena  

Flash (Queen cover)
Sleep
Cancer

Encore:
Desert Song
Famous Last Words

In I'm Not Okay I started to get really, really dehydrated, and would kill for some water. And then Frankie grabs his water, takes a big gulp then throws the rest of the bottle out into the crowd. I turned to Kate and was like 'Hmm...tastes like cigarettes'. And I got it and hahaha it was so cool. Ah it was a fantastic song. Frank said 'fuck me' instead of 'trust me'. You know I went 2 years thinking it was actually 'be nice to me'…ah anyways.

 

He introduced Give 'Em Hell Kid as "This song…*ten second break* is about….*ten second break* COCAINE". Hahah everyone was like "fuck yes cocaine".  hahaha.

 

And they played Cemetery Drive. *dead*

And he did the 'way down' hand movements and everyone copied him. Hahaha.

Gee kept talking about how I was off Revenge and stuff and people were going crazy.

When the opening parts to Welcome To The Black Parade started, everyone started doing the dance hand moves from the video and Gerard was like 'You know what to do' haha.

cred: katie.fairservive

Then things got weird. The Prison intro ramble riff thingy came on and Gerard started talking.

Exact words were:

"

Boogity Boogity Boogity Boogity! I want to hear all the ladies fuck themselves (Elle says to Kate: "oh dear god hear we go." Because we all know what stuff happens during prison intros)

Because I'll have you know I fuck myself on a daily basis. It goes like this.

You're gonna touch yourself make it sound convincible

Ladies…you're gonna spend most of the rest of your lives doing this.

This is what it sounds like.

uh uh uh uh uh. let me here you go"

 *crowd erupts into noises*

 

Oh dude. I've never laughed so hard.

It was the most hilarious, scariest, ridiculous thing ever.

It was so sexual I expected Bert McCrackhead to pop on out.

Hahah all these girls around me went absolutely insane.

It was the funniest shit I've ever been involved in.

Like…10 000 people making orgasm noises and touching themselves in unison.

And there were fucking kids there younger than 8 year olds there! I was like "Dude, my moms here" .Ahahahahhaha.

I remember looking at Kate and we both laughed our asses off.

Anyway...so we were all making the "uh uh" noises until Gerard was obviously satisfied and began to sing.

I love that song so much.

 

The Gerard was like "Who was at out Club shows with Green Day?" *crowd screams. Elle and & Kate look at each other feeling guilty*"And I believe you ALL…It must have been really fucking packed, let me tell you." The way he said it made me laugh.

 

cred: kate.fairservice

Before a song started, Frank was having some guitar troubles, so they had to stop and wait for Cortez to fix shit up. And Gerard started rambling, and then puts the spotlight on Ray and Ray does this, literally around 4 minute guitar solo. And everyone was like: *jaws drop* *hands go up*. Because fucking hell he's so talented. And he just kept going and going. It was amazing.  MCR is one of those bands I could watch forever play and every time I'd pick up something different.

 

Teenagers was definitely a crowd favourite; maybe the one best received that night in my opinion. It was like the video haha. Gerard started doing the fist in the air, and then the crowd did it. Frankie played great in that song. I remember watching him and ahh. So good.

 

Helena was awesome. Gerard introduced it as a 3CFSR song again and everyone went wild, just from him mentioning that album.  He was like "Its all about a funeral…. I hope you're all on your motherfucking feet.  I want you to hear you sing so loud that they hear you in the heavens up above". *sigh* I love that song so hard.

 

Then at around I nearly had to get out, because I literally couldn't stand up by myself. I was so faint and dizzy and dehydrated.*looks at Frankie's water bottle. Empty * (S.E.C fucking sucks at giving out water I've noticed. The only time when I've ever been given water was at Taste of Chaos and that was only 'oh lets throw water into the crowd'). So I was like wayyy out of it. But this girl gave me some of hers so it was all good. Oh, and me and Kate totally did the 'Eddie' dance move…in sleep…which is the most inappropriate time Kate could have picked to start it up.

 

Cancer was really moving. Total lighter and mobile phone light moment. Because "cell phones are the new lighter".

He didn't sing 'never marry'. But ahh. Such a beautiful song – the crowd just stood still and sung together [apart from these teenies who wouldn't stop screaming].

 

After Sleep was finished and the piano was left, the band left the stage and James slowly dragged out the piano and turned it into the tune of Desert Song. He built up the speed of it very slowly and I was like…shitting myself haha. Because you didn't know if it was going to be desert song or they were fucking with you.

 

But then I see Toro and Frankie come out with their other guitars and Frank sits down on stage and they start playing.

They played Desert Song! It was so beautiful – one the most beautiful songs I've ever seen performed live. It's so fucking emotionally charged. Everyone was just crying and it was such a special moment for everyone present.

And Famous Last Words came on. And gah. *dead* Everything about that performance was so powerful and intense and life-changing and amazing. He added a lot of extra 'fucks' in that song.

Awake and Unafraid

 

And at the end of the song, there were these fireworks and fire sparklers things falling from the roof. The pyros at that show were incredible, serious props for pyro guys.

 

cred: ourcarscollide

All throughout the show, they were flames – it was so cool. But geez, every time they sparked out it was like a heat wave! I don't know how the band played with it because it was so damn hot.

 

And Mikey!

Holyfuckingshit. He was like…a skinny stick of crazy kinetic energy. He moved…a lot! Mikey Way actually moved and walked and did some guitar tricks and threw his head all over the place. *tear*. He played so well. My little Mikes is growing up. He was so….woah though. I couldn't believe it.

 

And Frank hahaha. He was beautiful. He fell backwards off monitors, which I found hilarious. And he did his usually 'oh-lets-run-around-and-fuck-shit-up' stage antics.  Haha He knocked his head into his mic stand to tip it over (Cortez was constantly fixing it up). He spat a shitload as usual. LMFAO, Frank Iero has weird powers on me. Powers that make me spit and head bang like a crazy mofo. And he wore these pink, love-heart shaped sunnies xD And he cut his hair too! Which was epic…because he hasn't for god knows how long. He was so amazing though. I felt so lucky that he came after his difficult family shit.  He's full of epic win.<3

 

And Ray…was just like. God. An amazing, fro-headed, shredding, legend, god.He just blows my mind. His fingers are like…woah. It's just crazy. He's oozes genius-ism. I was seriously in awe of him the whole night.

 He kept going over to Frankie and hugged him and was laughing and dude, he was so drunk. He had his beer out on the stage like in January. It was awesome.

Anyway,  in my humble opinion Toro is one of the most incredible musicians I've been priveledged enough to be able to not only witness live, but hear altogether.

 

No Bobbie L

 But Tucker (Drummer from Thursday, which is pretty awesome) filled-in he pwned it. I like him. He gets the thumbs up.

 

And they might fill your place

A temporary stand in for your face

 

And Gerard was so incredible. His vocals were spot on as usual. He gave his all.

And rghvjnfigfkestgv such a good stage man.

Like..Freddy Mercury good. (Oh yeah. That's a Queen comparison. I totally went there)

He looked happy too, like, he smiled a lot. Which makes it even more enjoyable.

He danced through like everything.

At the end of Mama he stopped and started to fake cry, then putting on this fake voice screamed 'Moooommmmm. I don't wanna go to school!' It made me laugh.   Speaking of Mama, the explosions and pyros in that song were 'swimming'. Anyway, Gerard... He did his chicken dance, and licked his hand a lot and ahh. The memories. Apparently he jerked off his mic too, but I didn't see that.  And he made hand actions and stuff, like vampire actions and 'make you slit your wrist' actions. Funny stuff.

 

Then when it was over we picked up tickets and went around the back. I was pretty certain they wouldn't come out; the backstage meeting place is tiny, and there were quite a lot of people waiting, plus the fans were fucking morons as I've mentioned before.

 

Anyway, Anthony Green came out and videotaped everyone. Aww. Bless him and his adorability.

But we waited anyone, met some kids again from previous shows. My back was fucking killing me (its weird, no matter how much I get punched in the face, its never sore, either are my legs or feet; it's always my back) And I nearly passed out again I was that thirsty and exhausted.

 

 Talked to some more security dudes and came up with theories of were the band was, rofl. Maybe more importantly; WHERE WORM WAS. ='[ He wasn't at Brisbane, pre-gig, or at the show. *tear*. I missed him.

 

The remaining members of the band left discreetly as possible, and I figured, if they didn't want to come out it's because they have a reason. Which I totally understood and was satisfied. You pay for the show, not for meetings. The band has no obligation to come out, so stop complaining.

 

Do you have the keys to the hotel? 'Cause I'm gonna string the motherfucker on fire.

 

Went back to see Bremma at the hotel and chatted for a bit.

It was another day I will never forget, always cherish, and hold close to my heart.

cred: katie.fairservice

And laugh at, because he wore these.^

 

When you go

Just know that I will remember you

If living was the hardest part

Well then one day, be together

And in the end we'll fall apart

Just like the leaves change in colours

And then I will be with you

I will be there one last time now

When you go

Just know that I will remember you

I've lost my fear of falling

I will be with you

xoep.

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