I've Lost My Fear Of Falling

-Saw MCR at The Hordern Pavillion, Sydney.

-Played incredible...most moving thing ever.

-Met some lovely kids

-Chatted with the support band, Another Day Down...4/5 of them anyway XD

-Met Gerard Way <33

Note: I'll put my photos in an album instead of here =]

After the night before I had slept in toll 1ish, so I was a bit late getting ready.

When we arrived in the parking lot I jumped out while mum parked and everything. I got there at about 3:30 and already there was A LOT of kids. It was weird too because a lot of people looked like me. It was literally a black parade with the occasional red thrown in.

So I got to the end of line…no one form Ulladulla was there yet that I saw. After a while Mum came, I took the camera and took photos of the crowd and everything. I walked up and down the line for ages looking for people I knew and then found Bel! We talked for a bit which was awesome and then I went back. The line was incredible. The kids in the line had the coolest things: makeup, homemade shirts and bags, patient outfits with blood on them. I even saw a girl with a S//C jumper on that I talked to for a bit. It was so weird, because there was already this ‘bond’ between everyone. We were all there for the same thing.

After 4 and a half hours of lining up, we finally got in.  I went to the toilet and then ran like hell to the standing are. I was up the front in the middle of the stage, surrounded by boys and 3 girls. It was crazy already…the boys around me started moshing and stuff (to no music at all :/) and I got hurt quite a bit. Didn’t bother me. Then I started talking to these 3 girls around me. I totally forget their names, but they were 19 and from Blacktown and were really surprised at how much I traveled to be there and how weird it was that someone as young as myself was alone. They were extremely sweet and added me to their “mosh crew”. We then laughed at all the blown up condoms around us and talked some more.  Mom texted me a million times…before ADD had even come on.

The guitar techs came on and did their thing. And then Another Day Down came on. The boys started to get really rough and the girls grabbed me and yanked me out of there. They looked after me so well. They were awesome. Another Day Down played awesomely, and after a few songs I decided to get back to get closer and center myself. It took me a while but I did. A few rows from the front. ADD finished, we waited, and waited. Then The Black Parade curtain appeared and a bit of Greenday played while everything was getting tuned. I keep getting closer and closer and I had lost the girls I was with, and still knew no one.  Haha, after a while the lights dimmed and I saw Ray’s hair and flipped out.

Then, Bob began playing his drums, and The End began. And the Gerard sang the opening lines. I freaked out and got extremely excited. Then the curtain dropped. Holy shit. I will never forget that. Gerard was a bit to the left of me and Ray Toro was right there. And the crowd was just a sea of bodies jumping up. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. My Chemical Romance played The End perfectly and went straight into DEAD! About half way, The Worm (who was at the side of the stage) told Toro to stop, who told Gerard to stop. It was a dead halt. A heap of kids had fallen down, and Gerard told us to move back a few times. We all did (apart from some idiots). He said some funny shit up there. I recorded some of it on my phone. Then, all of the sudden, the “La La La La La. La La La La La Laaa”s came in. And they were all so synchronized and continued perfectly.

 My Chemical Romance played soooo well! The song choice was awesome. Amazing. Most of the kids were way nice to me. I couldn’t believe I was actually there. So damn emotional.  It was like Ray Toro and Gerard Way…10 metres away at the most. And just seeing Mikey and Bob play…it was incredible. I remember at the end of House of Wolves where Toro does his solo...I just froze and watched him.  Gerard said some hilarious thing throughout the show. Everyone just moved forward when Famous Last Words finished. When they left the stage, drumsticks were thrown and Blood was playing it was so good.  I saw a few kids I knew when I was leaving which was cool.

I ran like crazy to find mum out the side of the venue. There were heaps of people there already, and Mum was there, with her arms wrapped around the fence, coke and sharpie in her hand, holding my spot. Thank god she did, she put me up on the fence, haha she held me up there for ages, because I nearly kept fainting every 10 minutes. The girls behind me were CRAZY. They trying to push me off and Mum, like, baracaded herself around me. There was a lot of bitch fights ( “Listen slut, don’t think you are going to meet MY Gerard”). The Backstage doors were open, I could of sworn I saw Alicia. Anyway we saw them all walking around and stuff.  But I started talking to another few girls around me….I remember one of their names was Emily. They were way sweet. We all perfectly quoted the Y2+K7 Scare, and chatted about how cool it would be if Worm had a solo career. Then we laughed about how we had messed up the garden, because there was a crushed bush next to us. I took a picture of us…which left us to quote the “I killed so many plants” Gerard some more. They had camped out the other night, and meet the band (Toro asked if they had “snacks”) which I thought was very cool.

 There was this chick behind the fence who kept walking around…she was obviously someone important to the band. Then Worm came out (YAY!). He told us to all be quite or the band wouldn’t come out. Incase, you didn’t know, I absolutely LOVE the worm.

Then this bug ass truck came out and blocked out entire few. We all started yelling “MOVE THAT TRUCK”, we all laughed and it moved.

It was time to say hi to some roadies. I met Ryan, who was a roadie/band car driver. He knew Emily quite well and got them water and stuff. I dropped my book over the fence and he picked it up and stuff. Awesome guy.

Eric (the vocalist from Another Day Down) came out while the rest of the band were packing and stuff. He was the coolest guy. He talked to me and the Emily’s crew for, like 10 minutes. He had an “I love Dubbo” shirt on which I found hilarious for some reason, so we talked about Dubbo, and touring and stuff. He was like “Yeah…you girls are waiting for the chem. boys aren’t you”. But he was amazing and signed my book and stuff.

After, Andrew (the bassist from Another Day Down) came out. He didn’t stay for long, but I still mangaged to make and ass out of myself infront of him. When I was talking to him I told him “You have awesome writing Andrew”. Wtf…. He was awesome anyway.

I then met the back up vocalist and one of the guitarists. We just said hi and thanks and he signed my stuff. He went back and packed.

The guitarist had come up out of no where, and was just about to leave. But I yelled out hi and complemented the show and everything, and asked him to sign my book. He was  was so cool and polite. He spoke to me so nicely and was very sweet. After me, he left and went back to the rest of the band.

After about an hour, Mikey did a quick wave and left in a van…he didn’t get the chance to say hi to anyone.

Then, The Worm came out WITH GERARD WAY. It went absolutely crazy!!! He waved to us and then went down to the far end of the line first. I was so nervous… Mom handed me My Black Parade CD (with a picture of Mikey inside that Kate gave me, hehe).

And then Gerard was right there. My vocabulary however was not.

Me: *hands Gerard TBP* Hey!

*Gerard signs*

Me: Thankyou so so much. You guys are so awesome. You did an amazing show tonight. Thankyou!!!!

Gerard: *looks up at me and smiles* Aww, thank you!

And he was that damn close I brushed his jacket somehow. (yeah random I know…but it was soft , and I was cold, haha).

I died. That was the happiest moment of my entire life. I met the man that changed my life, my idol, my hero.

Gerard then went up the line a bit more before leaving in a van (driven by Ryan.).

I got so emotional. I was crying and just watching the backstage door. I had never been happier. The girls around me were really surprised, and asked why I was crying. I told them that’s all I have ever wanted. I told them where I was from and everything. They were like “:OOOO =]]]]]”. They were really awesome.

After that the band had left. People starting moving away. And it was getting really really late. So Mum and I said Bye to everyone and left.

Haha, I remember walking down the main Fox Studios Street, balling my eyes out, Mum was crying to. I must have looked so weird. We got in the car, and left. The kids in front of us were belting MCR out of the car which was awesome. I phoned Kate, and she didn’t believe what had happened at first. I called Courtney and Jenna. I called a lot of people.

Finished the night with KFC and went hope hyper in the early hours of the morning.

That night, was the absolute best time of my life. What I have written does not do justice to what it was, and how much it meant to me. It was just. unbelievable.

xoep.